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Violence, abuse in particular, is one of the central themes in the work
of Suzanne Vega.
In my opinion there is a development in the songs of this theme. For
the discussion I have chosen the songs Not Me, Luka, In the Eye and Rock
in this Pocket. Not Me is the oldest of the songs;, it was written in June
1981 and has not been published as a song yet. In this poem the course
of a conversation or rather argument between two people is told from the
point of view of a character who describes herself as being "a little girl",
"not ready" and "too young for this". At first, the reader is left uncertain
what is meant by "for this". Each statement of the girl is contrasted with
a statement of the man with whom she is fighting and who contradicts her.
But in the third stanza the point of view changes. The first person narrator
suddenly turns into a witness of the situation. The personal pronoun "I"
changes into a "she". The narrator now describes what happened as though
she was not involved. Now this third stanza reveals what was meant by "for
this": "He took somebody by the hair and dragged her down the hall". Suddenly
the talking has turned into action, but only the man acts, the little girl/narrator
stays passive, becomes the object of the sentences. Throughout the whole
song, the narrator is caught in the role of the victim. All she does is
to say things, she does not really act. The only form of resistance is
her denial of what has happened: "But I don't know who it was because/
I know it was/ not me." This last line is repeated eight times as though
the narrator has to assure herself over and over again that it did not
happen to her, that it was not her who was abused. It is not possible for
the narrator to catch the attention of her environment for her situation.
"They could not hear the call". There is no help from the people around
her, probably also because the narrator tries to deny and hide what has
happened.
The last stanza of the song seems to describe a conversation with another
man, now in the present. He complains about the behavior of the narrator.
The girl seems not to be able to communicate, to build up a relationship
because of what has happened to her. She keeps silence, is closed and introverted
and seeks solitude rather than company. In the end the only way she knows
to avoid a confrontation is her flight into denial. "I don't know who you're
talking to/ I know that it's not me".
In Not Me the protagonist is a victim of abuse, passive and unable
to defend herself except by words and by denying what happens to her. The
abuse shapes her whole behavior, she now has difficulties to establish
relationships and falls back into her habit of denial when she is confronted
with "human situation[s]". There is no sign of hope, and the poem conveys
a feeling of sadness and helplessness. It ends with the repetition of the
line "not me".
Luka was written three years later in 1984. It was surprisingly successful
and probably is Vega's most famous song to date. It won several songwriter
awards and was widely covered. Although it did not reach the number one
spot in all countries it became a "classic" all over the world. And this
is all the more surprising since the song deals with a case of child abuse.
The point of view is from the victim again, a nine year old boy named
Luka. The song starts with his introduction. "My name is Luka/ I live on
the second floor". The following lines convey the feeling that Luka is
talking to the listener, they get the reader involved. "I live upstairs
from you/ Yes I think you've seen me before". Throughout the whole song
one has the impression that Luka is actually talking to the reader, who
takes the part of his neighbor. The narrator continues by mentioning "Some
kind of trouble, some kind of fight" and it is not very clear for the reader
about what he is talking. This is similar to the lines "I think it's cause
I'm clumsy" and "I think it's cause I'm crazy". The reader does not know
what "it" is. It is not until the fourth stanza that the reader gets a
clue. The line "They only hit until you cry" reveals what the boy is talking
about, namely that he is abused.
In Luka, the protagonist does not try to deny what happens, but he
seeks the fault in himself: "I think it's cause I'm clumsy" etc. He takes
the blame for being beaten, and the line "They only hit until you cry"
conveys a very odd and bitter feeling, since it seems to be almost a defense
or justification of what is done to him. It sounds like: Well, at least
they stop when you start crying.
The relation between listener and the narrator is split. On the one
hand, the boy wants to tell his story, on the other hand, he stresses several
times not to ask him about his situation and he tells us that it is not
our business anyway. He seems to feel the urge to confess what happens
to him; on the other hand he seems to feel responsible for it. In the anonymity
of the city he does not know to whom he can talk to about his problems,
and in the end he says that he would just like to be alone. In the first
stanza the concept of "seeing" is mentioned and it seems to correspond
to that of "seeing" in Tom's Diner: The boy says: "Yes I think you've seen
me before" and it is obvious that "to see" does not mean to notice or to
talk to. It is like that "see" in Tom's Diner. The people "do not really
see", they are mostly preoccupied with themselves.
Luka shows a clear development from Not Me. The protagonist is still
the victim, but he now tries to communicate, to be noticed. He does not
deny what happens to him, but he blames himself. The song leaves the listener
very uncertain about Luka's fate. In a way one feels responsible since
the boy addresses himself to the listener; on the other hand, the boy himself
says that he wants to be left alone and not be questioned. There does not
seem to be much hope or help for him in an urban environment, in which
people pass each other, seeing but not really seeing.
In the Eye was written in 1986 and is also featured on the album Solitude
Standing. In In the Eye, the idea of "seeing" is developed even further.
The narrator describes what her weapon would be if someone were to kill
her. "I would still look you in the eye". She would try to make her murderer
really see her, to notice her, to realize that she is a human being, that
she has dignity and a personality. "In the eye" is a contrast to the "seeing"
concept of Tom's Diner. To look directly into one's eyes means to make
a real contact, to be aware of the other person's feelings. It is different
from the brief Tom's Diner-look where you try to avoid people's eyes. And
to look into one's eyes is probably surprising in a city where people just
pass by each other. The narrator uses the direct look as a weapon. To make
your opponent aware of the fact that you are a human being, that you have
dignity and personality is used as a shield against the senseless crime
and aggression of the city, in which victim and perpetrator are mostly
strangers to each other.
In contrast to Luka and Not Me, the victim of In the Eye shows resistance,
tries to defend herself, though only passively.
In Rock in this Pocket, the narrator eventually is not the victim any
more. This song is the first on the album 99.9F° from 1992 and it starts
with the lines "Excuse me/ If I may/ Turn your attention/ My way". Like
Luka, the narrator tries to catch the attention of her opponent but she
is more self-assured. In a polite but very determined way she demands attention
and forces the reader to consider the things from her point of view. "What's
so small to you/ Is so large to me". And again, as in Luka and In the Eye,
the image of "seeing" appears. "If it's the last thing I do/ I'll make
you see". The narrator knows that she has a certain power, she is aware
of her rights and her dignity. She even threatens her opponent and demands
her right to be really seen, to be noticed. She is not passive any longer
but fights back, is aggressive and asks for attention. The song ends with
the haunting triple repetition of "I'll make you see" and with a distinctive
drum beat that reflects the strength and willpower of the character.
I think one can trace a development in the characters from song to
song. In Not Me, the protagonist is weak, silent, does not know how to
cope with the situation except for denial. Luka is still predominately
a victim who blames himself. But he tries to get heard, although in a very
low and insecure voice. The narrator in In the Eye forces her opponent
to look at her, to really see her. She resists, if only passively. And
in Rock in this Pocket, the protagonist is hardly a victim at all. She
fights for her standpoint and "makes" people see her.
To fight against the violent city, the anonymous city, the emotionless
city, Vega's character come up with their personality. They demand to be
seen in the mass of people, to be treated humanly and with dignity.